peace

many things are happening in my little world... surprise i have gotten back to my old size... damn i feel angry with myself. I am really tired of letting myself down all the time. i shall not say how much i weigh but all i can say is i am at three digit now. seeing all this ppl that look g8 does not really me... what can really motivate me ....having a better lifestyle and able to see my but for once... i want to see it in small size ... i mean like shaply small buns not the PADANG..... ( that is field in Malay)..i.i...i have to work something out really fast b4 i bloat like an ugly toad