Wednesday, July 06, 2005

diari bonda and life hypocrcy

my malay reading adventure is still on the rise.... i heard that the series is quite good. going to start after i am done with cashflow quadrant. really been thinking about setting up my own biz... thinking of doing nasi lemak.. going to experiment with my mom recipe. i have tried cooking it. it was okay. i saw a shop near my place. has potential but there is alot to consider. this is one of my major plan. i bought an album that i wan to make into my dream book. where i put things that i wan in life plus cuttings and mementos of my life experiences. Journals too many already. online journal happening now. lets do something creative...like a sketch journal ....

life is very weird. we live in an era of denial that each one of us is a hypocrite. i am one of them also but i am trying not to be one. I try to say the truth and act to the honest way that i can. but i dont wan to be the one telling ppl that they are hypocrites in life coz i noe i am not a perfect being. So in life learn from yr mistakes and know when u make mistakes and aknowledge them.

someone ask y i don't have boyfriend? then the person assume that i am hopeful. what ya mean hopeful? hopeful that to get a goodlookin one or mengharap. eh 1st i aint exactly yr beauty queen. All i wan in my future husband is honest understanding and caring.... actually there is one in mind but lets not be too hopeful. which i am not. Ppl dont approach me lah. maybe i look intimidating.

my loan is approve. Alhamdulilah! i am ready to go on with my studies. insya Allah with the doas of my family. i can do it. trying to concentrate of the betterment my family life for a change.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

zai lets share the nasi lemak dream together...
i guess u n me r goin thru the same things..life was diffrnt then when we were kids..free frm the everyday problems..but day in n day out I'll remind myself to be positive...n after readin other ppl's prob...I gets stronger..hope it does for u too...
abt findin ur life partner..take it slow n steady...akan ditentukan jodoh jugak nanti..insya Allah...me n mel always tell ourselves that our zai is gonna get hook to an arab/ausies/u noe those campuran type...so see how beautiful U are by the way we match u wif..hehehe

zye sabtu said...

my tots are there about the busines and it is growing stroger everyday for me to be financial free and give the life that my parents deserve. I believe that u will think the same way too. Fil, I don't need a campuran man. all i need is a simple man that share the same dreams, hopes and values in life.Insya ALlah he will be there. in the mean time maybe i could lose some weigh lah. if u noe what i mean.

Anonymous said...

alah zai..dulu pun bila i got attached to azan I'm already overweight...He knew me as a fren at first n basically he fell in love with me bcoz of me...i've seen his ex before...n she a stewardess tau n hav the hindustani look..imagine comparin me n her...yg pentin is being urself..I appreciate him more for lovin me bcoz he accept the way i look...so takmu stress2 yah...be happy n it will shine on u...

zye sabtu said...

yes be happy. thanks. insya Allah, Allah lagi lebih tahu dari saya.